l.e.t.t.i.n. g.o.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

Back is adjusted. Body is healing. It was so good to see Kate today and get to vent and sort out our situations. After all this mamba jamba, I'm commiting to letting go.

Worrying about the future only messes with what you've got going on in the present. With all that's been running in my mind, I feel super foolish thinking I needed to keep up with other peoples' hustle. When I stop to focus on my own goals and style is when I can achieve and succeed at my own hustle, and own the shit out of it.

I'm understanding now that what I have to offer is NOT what other people have put on the table. What I have is a piece of me that the world has yet to see and that I am destined to share and put out for others to enjoy and benefit from. No more conforming. I'm here to give what I have going on, cuz what I have is fucking awesome and the world wants it hella bad.

The world covets my gifts. And lucky for it, I'm about to give it all the glory I have to offer.

Watch out now...

Spotty Dottie lazy day

Took advantage of spending time with my best friend while the boyfriend did his own thing today. Had breakfast, coffee, and even did our nails. Feeling relaxed and pretty :)

My next move will be to crack open a new book from Val's library. Happy summer!

My morning prayer...

Thank you Lord for this awesome day. I'm grateful for my to-do list and for the many fabulous people in my life. I'm happy to receive your blessings in all the many forms that you send them. May your hustling mercy be upon me and my loved ones as we embark to take on this day.

Lehgo!

Amen.

I've got to keep on movin'

I am beginning to understand the concept of "timing is everything."

Have you ever had a minor or even major twinge of jealousy for moving on too soon? Or maybe worse, not moving on when you had the chance?

While I see posts on FB of friends my and former colleagues receiving their once-in-a-lifetime award of MLB World Series Rings for being a part of the SF Giants family, I drool, I sob a bit, and I vow to keep on movin'. When I decided to leave the world of baseball and ballparks to begin flying the friendly skies, I tried not to look back. One unbelievable National League Division and World Series win later, it's a little hard not to want to be a part of that all over again.

Flying has brought so many joys to my life, don't get me wrong. However, I'm feeling another need for change. A need to keep on movin'. In that spirit I completed a super hardcore workout from BodyRock.tv to literally get up and start moving. Visit the website and try the workouts, the motivation there is incredible and kicks my butt every time.

Next up... Getting my mind and energy moving. I'm really stoked about the Morning Whip seminar hosted by TheDailyWhip.com. And though it'll be quite the investment, I feel like the timing is dead on. I'm ready to move forward and I'm excited at where I'll be personally, physically, and professionally by the end of 2011. In these 3 1/2 months only time will tell.

Bring it on! Let's get crackin'!

Getting in Gear!

Greetings from DC!

On a layover here in DC and am really feeding off this great energy of adrenaline that I have in anticipation of the next few days. I always am amazed to thing I've nearly been to the moon and back all while being blessed with the greatest of company in my fellow crew-members, as well as meeting up with loved ones along the way.

To think... I woke up in SF, will go to sleep in DC tonight. *pause for a now short rest in DC and a lovely breakfast with the crew* (maybe a quick warm up workout before breakfast... eh, perhaps.)

Then off to SF. Then scramble over a gate or two to hitch a ride to LA to see a friend and spend the night.

Then beeline it back to SF the next day in time to have a rehearsal among an amazing set of dancers, AND greet and host my parents at my house that night.

Then SHAZAM! Over to Seattle first thing in the morning to then drive up to Vancouver, British Columbia to celebrate my lola's 85th birthday.

The family hugs and kisses and drinks and dances, then my parents and boyfriend and I WOOSH! Back to SF come Monday afternoon so that Dad and boyfriend can get back to work Tuesday morning. And well, I'll be sleeping in hopefully since I just have a red eye flight on Tuesday night.

I'll be back to SF to come home to just my boyfriend next Wednesday night. No parents, no aunties, or uncles, or cousins. Just us.

This is my life. It's crazy, but  I don't know that I'd trade it for anything else at the moment.

Chaos kind of excites me :)

My Permission Slip to Dominate the Galaxy

To all my inner demons and ugly voices that have ever doubted my strengths and my cojones...

Here it is, my official permission slip to dominate the galaxy.

Read it and weep, suckas!

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I, Marissa Alyce Cruz, officially give myself permission to declare what I don't want and what I do want.  

X      Marissa Cruz       
Print Name:      Marissa Cruz            Date:        9/6/11      

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While I'm at it, I'll include my Official Conviction Contract:

I, Marissa Alyce Cruz, promise to honor and obey --forever-- my Official Conviction Contract. I determine, dictate and direct my financial value!

X      Marissa Cruz       

Print Name:      Marissa Cruz            Date:        9/6/11      

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Contracts courtesy of

Erika Lyremark - Whip Master

at The Daily Whip

I'm  doing it. I'm taking the plunge. I'm going to invest my time and energy into being the event planning maven that I'm destined to be.

And I'll be doing it through the Morning Whip starting September 25th. It's going to be a wild ride!

Thank you Eryka for the nudge in getting off my ass and fully on board for my Red Carpet Dream.
Let's get crackin!

Cheers!

Perks of Being a [Blog]flower

Yesterday, I finished reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. It was a pretty quick read; entertaining and fun. The ending wound up having a pretty remarkable impact on me. I highly recommend the book, and I really can't tell you what it is "about" but I can tell you that it's taught me a lesson or two about how to be a good friend.

In the book, Sam, a college bound bright-eyed girl, tells Charlie- the star of the story:

"Charlie, don't you get it?... It's great that you can listen and be a shoulder to someone, but what about when someone doesn't need a shoulder. What if they need the arms or something like that? You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things."

Now, I've created a habit of following a handful of blogs that are the call-to-action kind of blogs. Blogs and newsletters about DIY projects, entrepreneurial success stories, and such... I realize now that I've been soaking up all this great info like a sponge. But there comes a time where you've got to drop the sponge act and get out there and participate.

So here I am. Definitely a newbie at blogging, but ready to get out there and contribute to the conversations that until now I've only followed from a distance. I don't know that I'm an expert at any one thing, but maybe through this practice of blogging, I'll find my niche. Even if I don't, I'm ready to get off the wall.